day 339 :: an inner dialogue
Today I have been really busy with work and life and trying to get a ton done without a ton of motivation. It is really hard to be a motivated person (which I consider myself to be, despite my ADD) and lose a little bit of the love. I think, at least for me, I am somewhat a product of my environment. Meaning that if I am surrounded by motivated people it just feeds my motivation even more.
With my last company, Mobile Campus, I was constantly inspired. The people I worked with gave up so much for the company and really honestly genuinely CARED what happened. They were personally invested and fought to make it all succeed. I can’t say the same for my current status quo.
I guess this is somewhat of a lame argument. Ultimately you should want to do the best that you can in any situation and should work to keep the love alive even if others aren’t as personally vested or accountable…but somehow I’m just not sure that I can do that. I think I have to be doing something that I’m passionate about with passionate people, life is too short to not be totally inspired, right? Or is this totally idealistic.
This is the monologue going on within my head right now. Ouch. It is giving me a total inner head debate.
So that coupled with work projects (one major one finally launching, yay!) and way too many conversations and reading about this awful Perez-started gossip about JM that is total b.s.; my day has been totally consumed.
Yes, I realize that was just an awful use of a semi-colon, but whatever. I’m launching an email campaign for Ford, making myself a tumblr t-shirt (yes I am that lame), dealing with two clients, and applying chapstick ALL AT THE SAME TIME.
I know, I’m a gal of many talents :)
Happy Cinco de Mayo!